Couldn't sleep

I had a rough night. I just didn't sleep that well. I miss him so much. I shared everything with him. There is so much I wish I could tell him.

So far I still have not had a problem overeating. I have a different relationship with food now. I hate it. I eat only to survive. I can't stop thinking that food is what caused him to gain weight till the point that his heart gave out.

I start my Couch to 3k plan tomorrow. It is a 9 week program that takes you from being a couch potato to being able to run 3k. I am still too heavy for my 350 lbs scale. I hope I can use it by the end of the month

School is crazy busy. I have so much to catch up on. I am grateful to have a three day weekend to catch up.

I also think I will looking to finding a grief counselor to help me deal with his death.